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Tuesday, May 11, 2004
Holy! I'm writing in here. I think only cause idk i just am. I've realized these past two weeks I once had everything a person could want. A significant other with a wonderful relationship and now i have a significant other in which i have single handedly destroyed our realationship. SHe doesnt deserve to be treated like I am treating her. I really believe that I have turned into a monster and am out of control. I'm on a downward spiral with no end. Floating towards a life of misery. I am a bastard, why does everything I say become a lie? I sometimes wonder why I didn't end it. Seriously, Itd'a been soooo much easier! Lets see what I have to look forward too...Well a realationship I've ruined...friends who I'm bound to do the same too. And a family thats like having Bush and Bin-Laden in the same fucking room. I return kindness with anger and mean'ness. WHY >.< I fucking hate myself. Today because i couldnt call sika back I go w/e. I just miss talking on the phone...Hugging cuddling and just being happy. But GUESS WHAT?! I RUINED IT! Whats new? NOTHING. :-D. I'm debating on going into the military. It'd be easier I think. But Idk If I can get in tho cause of my hernia which i need to fix...SOON. Whoooops look what i get fer waiting >.<. I want to be the person who can cuddle without sex. I want to be ther person that can control anger and hate. I want to be the person that can just be in control of something right now I'm the person behind the wheel of a run away army tank...i destroy everything that gets in my way >.<Wednesday, March 10, 2004
It's been awhile since either of us has written in this thing...So my guess is that NO one is still reading it. One of my friends today brought up something about feelings and i totally relate to it...Well they said that they know in their hearts that they love someone but they dont get a feeling of it...And I understand Like I know i love Siiska in my heart and in my brain and I do get feelings just idk how to explain it...Only when i lose something i realize how much i miss it. Like with sika working and we didnt talk at all today besides in school. It hurts and sucks because i love her alot and want to be togather. But they are right I would have trouble associating back into a life of C-Townians, And i have enough trouble as it is...Idk y I want to know what i did in life to deserve all of this shit. People dying people moving what the fuck is up with this? :(Friday, January 30, 2004
I think.... my baby cousin's room is haunted. There's noises coming in over the baby monitor and no one's there O.o Oh well, all I need is an ouiji board haha. yeah right, my mom would kill me. She found out I did that when I was younger, like all the time with my Aunt Danielle, and I thought she was gonna strangle me. But I don't care, it's fun. Maybe I'll do one, if I can remember how to make one. Anyways... I'm bored outta my mind. That's one thing, and another thing... I feel lost. Totally and utterly lost. And I don't even know what to do about it. X_x but oh well, maybe it'll pass over, it always does, sooner or later. I prefer sooner, cuz I don't like it. Aaaannndd... I need to change that pic of me and John.... sorry John, but I don't like that pic of me, lol. I think you look hot in it, but I don't like me, sorry. lol. So yeah... maybe I'll figure that out sometime. So yeah.... bye ppl.... and I like the whole falling off the face of the earth thing. Too bad it couldn't really happen.... just kinda fallin thru space, it'd be interesting. well, yeah, anyways, like I was saying, bye (sorry so long)Thursday, January 29, 2004
I'm bored!!! aahhhh help meeee.... I'm in school doing nothing cuz there are no classes. I'm printing a pic for photography. And I'm hoping that John will show up sooner or later. But oh well if he doesn't. Anyways, my mom... I dk, she's not encouraging me about anything. She just encourages me to do stuff she wants me to do. Like, I wanna take a babysitting job and she's sitting there telling me I won't be able to handle it, and that I just shouldn't do it, and blah blah blah. What does she know? Nothing. And she's just really bugging me. She never supports anything I want to do, she sees all my decisions as wasting my life away. It pisses me off. I can't wait to leave.Sunday, January 25, 2004
CHECK IT OUT!!!! GO LAU! I LOVE THE LAU!! HEHE. WELL NOW THAT WE HAVE COMMENTS FEEL FREE TO READ AND COMMENT ON ANY OF THE ITEMS. HEHE. Well today is fun and brittany and I had 3 nightly convos! *for those of you who wouldnt get it we have one convo about 8:30is each night or later* WE HAD 3! Anyways...I WANNA THANK YOU LAU! We have a cool blog and comments ^_^. I love you Sisika *kiss* *hug* John-Passed out at 11:11Sunday, January 25, 2004
CHECK IT OUT!!!! GO LAU! I LOVE THE LAU!! HEHE. WELL NOW THAT WE HAVE COMMENTS FEEL FREE TO READ AND COMMENT ON ANY OF THE ITEMS. HEHE. Well today is fun and brittany and I had 3 nightly convos! *for those of you who wouldnt get it we have one convo about 8:30is each night or later* WE HAD 3! Anyways...I WANNA THANK YOU LAU! We have a cool blog and comments ^_^. I love you Sisika *kiss* *hug* John-Passed out at 11:11Sunday, January 25, 2004
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Friday, January 23, 2004
My mother is getting on my back about college again and how I'm "wasting" my life away. Just cuz I don't wanna go to college right awya. Big deal. I wanna take a year or 2 off. Is that so bad? I hate her... Oh well, I better go....Friday, January 23, 2004
no more school for a while, YAY! No more homework. I never wanna do homework again. So yeah.... school sux. But it'll be done soon. hehe. It's only the first day of exams... it's gonna be a long week ahead, and a boring one. Unless I can go to Sara's Tuesday nite. Hopefully I can. Otherwise, it'll just suck. And I still gotta go in for ceramics and stuff. Anywhooo... my baby cousin Jasada is in a licking stage. She's been licking everything she can... me, the dogs, books, furniture, pillows. It's rather disgusting, but it's hard not to be amused by it. So yeah... I guess life isn't too bad... it's been worse. But I have a feeling it won't get better for a while... but, it's ok. And I better go, cuz Jasada will be up fromher nap soon and I need all the "me" time I can get. bye pplThursday, January 22, 2004
Hi...today is fun...not really but lets pretend. Today is my spanish final or atlest part of it so I had sisika write my parts on my hand! HEHE!!! I don't cheat, I just dont play like everyone else I guess. Sika is looking at anime n school shes lucky the safe search is on!! OR ELSE DUN DUN DUN. Well I'm gonna go now because its almost time to leave. :-D byeeeWednesday, January 21, 2004
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yeah... I am not a "funshway" expert or w/e.... so yeah, don't mind John. And I hope Sika fish dies! .... since I can't.... anyways.... People, email Serenity... crimpsonchic16@hotmail.com ok? yeah, say Hi, she misses us... um.... school is REALLY sucking right now, and badly. I hate it. Maybe I'll just drop out, my parents would love that huh? They already love the fact I'm not going to college right away >.< Darren leaves tomorrow for Antarctica I think, or Greenland, for a month, yay. Hope he freezes to death. So It'll be nice... no more yelling, until mymom decides she's frustrated and need to take it out on someone.... who's the someone??? you ask. Meeee!!! aren't I priveleged. so yeah, yippeee, life is so god damn fucking grand, ain't it?Sunday, January 18, 2004
Wow i posted with out Sika yelling at me and saying i never post enough! haha. Well its been a boring day. And Sika Fish is still alive and so isnt Lau fish! YAY!!! So let's hope it stays that way! I wanna "re model" my already re modled room but i need sika's help. Shes my fashion advisor and house funshway expert or how ever you spell it lol. I wish we had comments...MAYBE Lau fish can help me! *hint hint* LOL well better go. ENJOY LOLThursday, January 15, 2004
my fave song: http://www.atlyrics.com/e/everclear/page12.htmlThursday, January 15, 2004
School suxWednesday, January 14, 2004
Well its been a few days since I've posted. Well nothing new in the life i guess. Cept i named my newest fish laura lol after the loser giants fan ;) lol. Well went shopping with sara like the usual wednesday tradition but we had to take isaac with us this time. Which was interesting...lol. Ya know the usual goin on here moms a bitch dads being "sick". Which honestly wouldn't surpise me if he was dying of something. Idk what the hell is up my moms ass whether it be another man or a piece of rubber/plastic. It's so hard to put your loved ones in perdicaments but Idk sometimes I am to possesive but I'm trying not to be, But our loved ones should be protected to a certain extent.I mean sometimes I feel to harsh but I dont want this person doing something and having them gone forever. I'm in this to far for that. :(. Sometimes I'd rather break down than face the fact that I gave and ultimatim. >.< The inner struggles in life just suck, but I guess if you truly love someone you will piss them off to protect them. Unhappiness is just part of love. I Love You, You know who you are and I'm SOOO sorry *kiss*Wednesday, January 14, 2004
haha check out new template, sorry if it scars ya'll for life, lol. well, like 1/2 of you know about my aunt Danielle and what a bitch she is.... I hate her. She's ruining her daughter's life, and she needs help. But no, she's a bitch and continues to make everyones life a living hell. I hate her... poor Jasada ;(Wednesday, January 14, 2004
Today, Sara got ran over in French, haha. By Mdm. Woykowski. Twas funny. With the overhead projector none the less. It was funnier at the time, I guess you had to see it. Anywho... I'm really really tired. And bored. And life sux. But, w/e. I think I'll go to bed early again tonite. I don't even have anything to write about. And Sab, I'm satill looking for one of my better writings to post on here. But I haven't found any yet.... so yeah. Bye peopleTuesday, January 13, 2004
Today... it was a good day hehe. John knows why. My rents are getting the "new" car tonite, yay! I can't wait to drive it. In school... it was boring most of the day... except for french. Ever talk about tampons with your friends? yes, tampons. And how the super size ones kinda hurt when you pull them out.... yeah... interesting subject. And then, I was looking at the brick pattern on the outside of the building across of the classroom window.... Sab had no idea what I was talking about and looked at me as though I were crazy. But French was prolly the most interesting ever... And I have new sox, lol, they're way cool. ~.^ haha. bright yellow ones and lime green ones and bright orange ones... I'm telling you, they're hot. Oh yeah, and in French... Mdm. Woykowski asked Isaac to get 2 light bulbs for the overhead projector, and he comes back with a whole other projector... and Sab said something about stapling a note to his head... that'd hurt. By the way... looking for Sailor Moon coloring pics on the web isn't a good idea if your lil sis is right there. I think I traumatized her.... ANYWAY! Johnny, I love you ^_^ lots and lotsFriday, January 9, 2004
John named another fish after me again. You told everyone not to do that :P Is it dead yet? x_xFriday, January 9, 2004
I love John, lots and lots and lots ^_______________^ hehe. I'm eating Raisin Bran right now... a lot of people think it's gross, but it really isn't. Quite yummy actually lol. I'm waiting for my parents to get home, they went to try and get another SUV. I really hope they do... but next week I don't hafta walk to school luckily. My (gay-ass) stepdad took next week off. So I finally get a ride to school. yay. John, it's 5:03 and my parents aren't home yet *pout* and you know why I'm pouting. This sux. I love you John!Thursday, January 8, 2004
I told my mom that me and John are dating now! She really didn't seem to care. I thought she was going to make a big deal and give me her speech about "you're still young, you have your life ahead of you, don't get serious" blah blah blah. But she didn't. Even if she did, it wouldn't matter. Cuz I love John ^_^ And John, if you read this before I talk to you or give you the note, this is your first time hearing the news about me telling my mom... she really didn't care. So, I guess that means she likes you, wheee! Yay, tomorrow's Friday. You know what that means John *wink wink* lol. You get punished. tsk tsk. Well, today was boring, nothing good happened. My mom is trying to get her GED so I'm helping her with the questions and stuff... I feel smart, lol. So yeah, that's it.... bye ppls.Thursday, January 8, 2004
Well well today was great except the fact its been sorta hard latley being ya know SF. >.<. I'm just glad me and Sisika are dating again it makes me sooooo happy. Well about Sisika DONT Name your pets after her as much as I love her its sorta hard for me to now LOL. Sisika the Gecko ran away then was caught then ran away and died under the furnace, THEN Sisika the Fish whom i got last night croaked last night >.< LOL. MAN O' MAN. Sara the fish needs to just keep swimming LOL. Anyways I love you Sisika!! Finally tommorow SF can GO BYE BYE. Sika I broke our pact >.< I'm SOOOOOO SORRY I'll explain that later :(. SOWWY. Well I should go before people get to bored at reading this sappy stuff lol.Wednesday, January 7, 2004
Hey... You know? Parents suck donkey balls. They're always getting in the way of things. Like, when you're trying to get it on with your significant other? Ya'll know what I mean? Doesn't that suck?! Yeah, I experienced it once again today. -_-;;; And my parents won't shut up. And my step dad is gay. He gota new haircut and it's spikey, eeeewww!!! John, you'll laugh halariously when you see it. It's awful. And John, you look REALLY good with your hair the way it is now ~.^ *hint hint* ^_^ I love you!!!Tuesday, January 6, 2004
Hey Hunny, lol. So yeah, I think we're sharing a blog now? Sweet Jesus. But anyways, yeah, we're dating now, ^_^ Tis great. I have yet to tell my mom though -_-; eck. Should be interesting. Hey did ya'll know life sux? Cept when you have someone to share with. Makes things seem like they're gonna be ok. But when they're not around, life sux majorly. John, your mom is totally menopausing. lol. I love you!!!Tuesday, January 6, 2004
John-Today was realativley boring. I know I spelled that wrong but thats OK. Me and Sisika started dating 2 days ago! I'm so happy about that!!! But my mom hasn't exaclty been the most cheery person latley. But she doesnt matter, she flipped out because I bought another ring and I wore an armband with a skull on it; She so needs a life. What would be even better is if she stayed out of mine :-D. That would make me happy. HAHA.Sika
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